we just realized, only today... only now.. we aren't going be able to keep living under our abusers, they are incompetent. they will not care for us. we have to start a plan now to leave. we don't know how to. we were never taught, we were taken out of schooling, we rotted our whole life. we lived by dont think about the future, things will somehow work out and now, we are severely mentally and physically disabled, and can't work, and can't learn.

but now, only now, we realize we have to leave. we have to start planning to leave and we don’t know how to do anything. we aren’t a person. we don’t want to be alone and we don’t know how to be alone. but we have to, because they say theyll get a home for us here but we cant because we need a caretaker. we don't want this, and now we know. we are going to have to do the thing we always feared most. be alone. a caretaker is just a job, they won't care about us in anyway, not that we like their "care" but they’re the only people we have left. what then. we won't have anybody. we will give our life management to someone and hope not to end up with a new abuser. and that will be the rest of our life. we will have to focus step by step on getting things that can let us live in a different place that's at least not in the middle of nowhere.

and we have to wait

wait to tell them till we get on medicaid and disability aid and what we plan to do, they will probably freak out and try to make us stay. but we can't do this without them we have to do it before they are gone. we shouldn’t have to do this, we never were taught to be a person …